Saturday, September 30, 2006
-- Define trust --
saw a funny uncle..he's really very cute..but...hem..he's dumb..i dun mean dumb as in stupid..i mean..he can't talk..you know..talk..but no voice come out...haha...he got a wife..though..blissful ar..think that's what love means bahz..different people just have different destiny and life..
tf just told me that he failed his java certification when we were playing badminton..hem..shocked..tot he was lying..but wf said he really fail..hmm...how can it be..pro failing java certification..but..well its nothing to him..its only like being robbed for 70 bucks..he doesn't care anyway..he's rich..i think..haha..but he just told me ytd that he want to save money..when i asked him to go cut his hair..hmm..
hearing that tf fail..make me lose my confidence..damn tons lots of confidence...but..i still kip trying to console and cheat myself that..nono...i'll pass alright..just do the 200 questions..and i'll pass..but hey..face it..our class..for now..only got shushan pass..and only pass by 8%..and the best in java de ren..failed!!
was wondering whether can i tell the teacher to postpone the test again..since teck hwee is only taking it when the nxt semester starts..i just don't dare to take..its not cause of the money though..its my confidence level..just getting lower and lower...fail again..i must rebuilt my confidence level all over again..but now..none of the module can make me gain my confidence level..except daytona and a maths..but hey..can't possibly ask me go do a maths siao..crazy..and daytona..its just a sort of lying to myself that i got something good...
at long last..i played pool today and went kbox today..didn't realise that i didn't went for pool for quite long..until the auntie say "很久没有看到你了..."saw wanqi..didn't change much..me n shiyun were saying after pool go take card neoprint..but..hmm..guess i was busy eating and she was busying talking to me..that we were standing at the traffic lights for half an hour..in the end..so late le.so didn't take neoprint..hmm..
truth are always hurting huh...
know what..the marcus..is not fulin's brother after all..realise it only when i saw that marcus email add..then start to think..fulin's surname is chua wad..but y marcus surname is song..hmm..went to confront them..he say he is fulin's bro..just that not real bro nia mahz..hem..okie..i know..i'm dumb..now this dumb really mean stupid..
chatting last nite in msn..not sure whether to trust fulin or trust marcus..though i know i should trust fulin..cause..well she's my friend..but..all evidence points to the fact that marcus is right..and fulin keep asking me to trust her..but how to trust her when she keep on doing this on and on..
anyway..not sure what's wrong with the world..people only start matchmaking when they are like 30..cannot get married or what..but nowadays de world..what..still like so young..then start matchmaking?!??!omg!!haix..still got so many chances lor..what for..siao..and so desperate for what..
anyway..have u ever heard of someone having a gpa of 1.0..omg..i just heard it..last nite..reason:slept late for exam...found more and more of my ka kee..just that i more lucky...got friends who will care and willing to wake me up...
Love is sour and bitter.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
-- i passed!! --
Oooo..congrats to me!!
passed my basic safety theory test today..haha..must thank 2 person...1 is xz..who lend me her basic theory book..just in time..as i dun hab time to go buy one..its was quite last min..hmm..and..she..who..i went to meet her on tuesday..just to take the book from her..spend more than 2 hours..sitting down at the amk central hall/stage..its sort of in the middle of the road(can't find any other place to sit)..many people were looking at us of course..hmm..yea..anyway..she spend more than 2hours teaching me..after that 2 hours..i can say..i finish revising 80% of it..well never been so confident after that..even more confident than when i'm doing my best subject...a-maths..hmm...well..u see..i only got less than 24 hrs to study..since i got the book from her..on tuesday..so left one day to study..and hey..most of the wednesday..i was tired..and was sleeping..yea..a pig..i know..haha..so..thanks to her..i pass my theory test today..she couldn't believe it too..haha..she thought i failed sia..when she saw me today..cause i'm not smiling..well..not smiling..cause..i'm tired..grr..duno why recently got so tired..during school days..1 day slept less than 5 hrs..continuosly having these kinda behaviour for 3 days also doesn't matter..but durin holiday..especially this time de holiday..i slept less than 7 hours..also will feel tired le..hmm...
well..2nd person/pair..need to thank is of course my parents lor..think so much for wad..think is u ar..wahaha...no lar...thank them..cause they sponsor me for it mah..wonder will i get any car when i pass..hmm..well most probably only toy car bahz..haix..who want to buy me a porsche?i yu sheng xiang xu..wahahah....
anyway..just register for my final theory...its on oct 31..didn't register for the practical lessons yet..as i think i don't have much time to learn..maybe when i pass my final theory le..then if time permits..i'll go for it fully..with 100% concentration!!
skip today meeting again..really don't feel like going manz..well..just hmm...duno how to say...not right de feeling...maybe if i didn't go for the TICE camp..things would be different..haha..skip meeting today..only decided when i reach outside nyp...and standing there talking to xz..for more than half an hour..in the end..decide not to go and continue talking to xz sitting at the bus stop for another half an hour..well..after that when reach yck mrt...we stand there talking for another 15 mins again..till we went back to our own homes..hmm..duno why got so many things to talk also..just cars..hahaha...
someone knock onto my parent's car today..but that person is still damn honest..hard to find this kinda people nowadays..as he/she left his/her car number down for my parents to claim..else...hoho...reali hard to find these kinda people in this evil and virtual world..
anyway..hmm..duno really know whether am i doing this right or wrong..i mean..someone just invite me to join their project group next sem..hmm..as in..well..the project group de members..are what i wish for the members..2 pros are inside..teck hwee and tengfei are inside de project group..hmm..and someone just invite me to join..they say its a secret...no one knows yet..so when nxt sem start..tis group..as in my group is set...they say they want a really strong group aiming for the whole group unity and getting distinction..of course..i don't have the skill..its just i am invited..as..i'm well..you know..fren of somebody somebody..i mean as in..the really good terms in class..so..yar...well..the people they find to join..are really those pros..who can get distinction easily..but i was thinking..if its like this..will it be unfair to others..its really unfair..having no pros in other groups..like leaving them to the road of hell..but..hey..this kinda members in the group are really what i wish for..haha...and the people in the group..are those that the whole class wana snatch for them to join de..that everytime must 抽签..hmm..so..should a join?its a good chance...but its also unfair to other people in class..especially evonne and fulin when they are always waiting for me to like separate the gals..hmm..haix...
grr..too long de blog..people fainting from words le..off to bath now..hmm..late le..
Love is sour and bitter.
Monday, September 25, 2006
-- postpone..again and again.. --
slept damn late last night..4am plus bahz..chionging for java certifcation...still msg yangu asked her wake me up at 11am to study..well..she called me at 1045am instead..continue to sleep..too tired..asked her call later to wake me up again.. 5mins later..somebody call.its the school number..what the heck..i press silence and continue to sleep..but the whoever is calling..doesn't want to give up sia..that person keep calling keep calling...till around 11 going 12pm..then i gave up..actually not much..5miss calls from the school..and 1 miss call from fulin..hmm..did that person who call ask fulin to contact me??hmm..
anyway..another call came..hp number..but i guess its that same person..just when i was about to answer the call..that person hung up..got to praise for his determination sia..well..he called again..its that lee chit boon..hmm..asking about my java certification..using his hp to call..think he's having his lunch..not gonna give up even in his lunch sia..he asked whether have i done the pdf file..i told him no..then he said.."wa..wana die ar.."haha..no lar..but that's what he meant..and he asked me whether i'm confidence enough without doing the pdf file..so i told him okie then..next tuesday..10am..hmm....he seems don't wana put down the phone..saying "wait ar..let me check whether got anything else anot"..okie..i agree..i'm hard to contact..only when i'm sleeping..grr..hmm..
so now..my java certification exam is next week morning at 10am..argh..so..now..must concentrate on my basic theory le..anyway..after my breakfast..was sitting on my bed to study the java certification..mother went out to work at around 1pm plus going to 2pm..after she went off..i continue to sit on the bed..the maid was cleaning my window..know what..i fall asleep after a while..sleep for around 2 hr plus..amazing huh..holiday still can sleep so much..hmm..called my mother to ask whether did she find the basic theory book..she says she talking to a pig that she sow at home..well just slept for extra few hours become pig ar?!??grr..
jsut when i was thinking of ways to contact xinzhen..want to lend her book..she call me..whaha..we xing you ling xi??whahaha...
okie okie..dun say le..go eat fruits le..anyway..something happen to my relatives..again and again..haix..my uncle got into an accident while handling machine..then his thumb got 1/4 of it got cut off by the machine..haix..
ps: been listening to the "school of rock" the cd..i can still say..the movie is still clear in my mind..after more than 2 years of watching the movie..cause the songs are so so nice..one of the songs is "heal me,i'm heartsick" by "no vancancy"..really cool and nice..
Love is sour and bitter.
-- sianz diao.. --
just came back from running...sianz diao...performance decrease..so bad today..normally can run the normal route without stopping..but today...run half of it..then stop le...felt stomach pain..normally won't de..haix..maybe cause just now before when i went out to run..when everything was prepared..wore my socks and shoes..all done..went to take the big whole cup of barley water on the table and drank it in one gulp..scare later when i came back from the run..it will be filled with ants..so without thinking..drank it all down...until when i ran for about 10mins..felt the pain le..argh..shit..wrong chocie!!ar............
another possible reason for my lack of performance was maybe cause friday didn't go for badminton bahz...cause wanted to go cut hair...and wwf and tf was complaining that they want to rest..so..okie lor..orbi to tf..his friday nick was "bored at home"...don't want go badminton lor..don't want go lor..so bored at home and make my performace lack..ah...sianz..
cooling down now..still sweating though..pain almost gone...when i went to take a look of the basic theory book..then realise that my sis's generation of the basic theory test abit antique le..and the test is like 3 days away..hem..planning to start on tuesday..after my java certification..which i have 2 days to study..but the antique book..some of the contents/rules inside change..hmm..even my mother asked me to go check it out..since the book was like 3 years ago..so many things change..great..now..where to find the time to go buy another book..was counting my sis to give me the book..now..got to get one myself..or maybe..should ask that who who who to lend me hers..since she just pass hers..argh..5 more mins i shall go bath..grr...saw the people that i dun wana tok online..feel like using the block function buy if i block that person..must block many many others from different categories..grr...haix..
ps:realise nowadays de guys are getting more and more desperate..what's wrong in being single?omg..its good wad..freedom...grr...
Love is sour and bitter.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
-- kbox-ing --
decide not to go malaysia later with pepsi..hmm..wanted to study java..maybe next month then go with guan hui..then ask pepsi come along lor..coz...look at the convo below:
[11:11:56 PM] [P]epS!: u can go/
[11:12:14 PM] [P]epS!: ur muM gt sae anitin/
[12:51:24 AM] crazy guy...: nope..
[12:51:25 AM] crazy guy...: but..
[12:51:26 AM] crazy guy...: hM..
[12:51:30 AM] crazy guy...: haven finish studying..
[12:51:31 AM] crazy guy...: sian..
[12:52:09 AM] * crazy guy...called jason {dinner~} is now Online
[12:52:10 AM] * crazy guy...called jason {dinner~} has changed his/her name to crazy guy...called jason
[01:05:56 AM] [P]epS!: dun lyk u [01:06:06 AM]
[P]epS!: last min pangseh [01:06:18 AM]
[P]epS!: bleahz [01:06:58 AM] * crazy guy...called jason is now Away (idle)
see...hmm..
anyway..by tonite must finish 1 and a half topics..try my best manz..cause i haven start studying my basic theory test..thinking to read thru it by tuesday and asked xz test me..hmm..
went out for kbox today..hmm..sing from 1120am - 340pm..but know what..yangu only reached at 1pm plus..and amazing huh..she still call me at 905am to wake me up..hmm...
had fun..more than 3 months didn't go kbox le..this time..sing till i shuang..haha...anyway..after that went to take neoprints..n walk walk abit..hmm..
hM..photos look abit small..
been talking to fulin's bro...and hmm..no wonder they are siblings..haix..nvm.
go chat a while more thn must study liao..ciaoz..
Love is sour and bitter.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
-- crazy guy called jason.. --
someone call huang.just add me..idiotic..stupid..crazy guy..he say he call jason..great..another jason..wana know his email "huang_ling888@hotmail.com"..rmb..dun add him unless u are horny..lolx!
some guy..who is 23...saw his photo..dun look like 23..more look like my age..post his photo here later..say wad..he no gf before..bla bla bla..all those crap..n ask me lotx of things..said wad fate..pui..
anyway..he's a bad guy..just a lonely n siao crazy guy..my email so special..still got people anyhow type out tis kinda email n add..grr...
here is his photo:
i came to irritate him and asked him go geyland..still say wad finance officer..come on lor..if u are finance officer..then the world is full of corrupted people le..anyway..manage to irritate him away..and have blocked him..!!grr..
teck hwee just asked me to get 3/4 'As' next sem..so as to increase my gpa..he must be crazy huh..
pepsi's parents just invite me to go johor with them this sunday..should i go??hmm...say wad go wad jessico/jessica shopping center de ar..duno where isit though..hmm..
manage to complete 2 topics of java cert today...shall jia you and work on my basic theory test soon after i finish studying the java cert..ahh...
crazy guy!!RMB HIS FACE AND RUN WHEN U SEE HIM!!
Love is sour and bitter.
Friday, September 22, 2006
-- liao li! --
last nite..at 00:53:09am...received a msg..a multimedia msg..from my ex working colleague...really good colleague..at first i thought i saw wrongly..as the msg says "FREE *SEX* software for you!!and still have the website behind it..omg..nono..she couldn't be doing this kinda job..not at all..hmm..must think of the positive side..that she lost her phone..and people is using her phone to send this kinda thing..but if she lost her phone..means i will lose contact with her..argh..sianz..but i dun dare to reply back..imagine that person reply back "u interested?"..omg..hmm...
anyway..last nite..managed to fall asleep..so i can only conclude that the reason that i can't sleep is cause of my results bahz..hmm...
set my alarm clock to 11am..was preparing to wake up to study java certification..but..people renovating..someone moving in to my opposite soon..then the drills..make me fall asleep again..amazing huh..yea..i'm just so weird..people is awoken by drills..me is let drills sung to sleep..hmm..
woke up only at 3pm..ate lots of lots of things..after that..was doing something..something that i owe someone..its a secret..hmm..so..not going to say here..almost done..left 20%..hmm..but..because of that thing..didn't get to study..hmm..going to study now..grr..
that someone better be happy and proud when that someone receive that thingy..grr..
Love is sour and bitter.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
-- Ha..hap..hapi..birthday to panda..! --
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PANDA!!
GO BUY TOTO/4D...
GO PUB
GO DRINK
GO SMOKE
GO SEX SHOP
GO REGISTER ROM
GO WATEVER U WAN...JUST REMEMBER...
DON'T COME IRRITATE ME...
WAHAHAH..JUST JOKING...
Love is sour and bitter.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
-- Unexpected... --
Last night...was still thinking whether can i get to my expectations for my results...not preparing to stay till 3am or even wake up at 6am to check my results...since no matter what time i check my results..it still won't change..was very anxious..scared..trembling..having cold feet and hand..although it was still quite long before i get my results..at least 6 hours..have asked kim to check my results for me first..then i prompt her questions..can say i'm coward..can say i got zero confidence..but that's just me...
from pri sch till now..even though the report book or exam sheet is in my hand..i won't be the first to get to know the results..i can even keep till night..or even the next day..still won't even dare to take a peek..so..my friends...who were damn anxious..were be the first to see my results..then..them telling me whether did i pass..just this would be enough..
last night..mad was telling me that her friend told her results out le..but when she went to check..not out yet..then again..another friend told her results out..well..its true now..results really out..thought she was lying..then panda came and tell me results out le..omg...omg..sucks..i haven got any preparation..was scared like hell...turn really cold..it was only going to 2am..and they school announce that results will only be out at 6am..liar!!liar!!i should have went to bed early that day...kim keep asking me to calm down when i was like flooding the msn window..and she went to check my results..
well..pass all..but i'm not satisfied..not at all!!!#$&^#$&$%^@#
especially my C++ and IP...got a D for C++...okie..maybe you will start telling me "at least i pass this crazy module"...well..but...its my second D in my whole life!hmm..was still happily thinking that "Yay..this sem no more D for me..as the project was alright"...well..project was great..got a B..thanks to my group members..and of course..not forgetting the primary school teacher "Ms cher pei hua"...
stupid c++ stupid c++...spoil my result nice nice de page..u sucks!
another thing was IP..i expect to get a A...got a B+ instead..sucks..me and minwei was still so happy after the IP paper..saying..hoho..got A liao..got A liao..hmm results out..no A..got B+..he got A though..he say maybe they moderate too much..at first can get A also become B+ le..haix..sian..
the thing i shocked dao de is dbms and ooad..expect dbms to get a C..instead..got a B..expect ooad to get a B+..instead got a c+...its totally opposite..think its average bahz..got 3 modules happy with it..3 modules not happy with it..but still not happy though..cause i got a D..sucks!sianz!
last nite..wwf say "i feel like crying.." cause of results of course..then suddenly..he say i go sleep le..thought we went to cry..so asked tf to call him to check it out..not too obvious though..after he put down the phone..he was laughing at me and saying.."guys don't cry so easily lar"..yes..he did not cry..hmm...haix..ownself feel like crying..still scare people will cry..hmm..maybe i just don't wana people to cry before me bahz...
went to bed quite early..well before 3..its considered early for me le..can't sleep..totally cannot sleep..first time cannot sleep..haix..yea yea..should have listen to jiawei..wake up then check my results..so can sleep better..msg net..she sleep le..was tossing and turning...still cannot sleep..went to listen to music..sianz..no more batt...can't rmb..only rmb that the last time i check the clock..was already 5am le...hmm..
woke up by several calls of yangu..duno what she call for..but i just press silence whenever it rings..and continue to sleep..woke up again..at 11am..by the noise outside..its the maid and my mother..again..again and again...the maid was complaining and talking about wanting to go home when my mother give her her salary..well..of course..she can't go home..unless she got 800 bucks to pay..400 for air ticket..and 400 for breaking the contract...
waiting for my mother to fetch me to school for badminton..about to reach 2pm le..meeting tf n wf at 2pm..was about to went up and call my mother..then she came down and said i must go school on my own..she was damn late le..and someone was waiting for her at the office..grr..sucks..
reach at around 230pm..same..play 2hrs..then off we go..
haix..maybe i still need some time...
Love is sour and bitter.
