Sunday, December 31, 2006
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been quite long since i blog..that i forgot some of the things that i've done..well...i think i jus recall what i rmb and blog it down...
sunday..was christmas eve..went to my uncle's house for christmas party..well..quite different as last year..cause this year..cause of my sis, it was not held at my house..so..there's no christmas tree..when my aunt asked my mother to bring the christmas tree..it was already too late..so...too bad..another thing different from this year is that..the countdown..was damn damn weird..hmm...cause the countdown was not counted at 12am..it was like started at 1146pm..hmm...i was like there saying that not yet 1159...thn my aunt started counting down..i look at my cousin..my cousin look at me..only both of us were like there standing like a statue..the rest were already counting down..oh fine..nvm..well..went back to bbq after that..played games...then exchange presents..and went home around 130am plus...
reach home..bath..came online a while..and went to sleep..the next day woke up quite late..forgot wad time..well..this whole week...i went to school..and try to do some project..realise and think that i know the codes for my project..have type out...but my servlet stil have a red cross on it..i start to wonder if i can managed to finish all..what if i everyday stayed back in school till 8pm..will i be able to complete it..i must complete it this time round..no matter what..shall let my friends jumped for joy..shall let my friends be proud of me..shall let yap yap be proud of me...well..abit impossible though..but i shall try..stop going to daytona..stop playing games..stop pooling...just..okie..at least let me watch some tv and cycle like i always do..hope i can do it..no..i must do it..though maybe i'll be stress..with the ongoing cca..and yeah..damn..now i rmb..handover is coming soon..big responsibilites coming now..think my pure white hair will increase again..
panda came to my house to fix mysql...he manage to clear all the errors...but still didn't get it work..guess my comp must be a bi..gal..it dun like..guy..also dun like..just on that day...when on our way to my house..receive a sms from my sis sayin that her gastric pain...i was thinking..again?!?!!!?!??!?!hey..helloooooooo....she just came back from hospital removing her apendicitis..its her 2nd day to work jus after she gt discharge..and now what..there's nothing to remove in her body now..wad else..big intestine??small intestine?!??or the whole gastric??!?*puke*...just the thought of it..the sight of my goosebumps can all be seen...after panda went home for his steamboat...which he dun wana share...i went to hospital..bringing my sis's clothing and all...heard that actually she can be discharged when the company send her to the hospital..but just when she was about to leave the doctor's room..she vomited in front of the doctor!.............................
hem...well..i can only say that she's damn suay..just after she remove her apendicities..she gt food poisoning..went back home..to bath and all..told my parents i going back to hospital to accompany her..my mother was like "huh...how you coming later?"...took taxi there lor...but in the end...after i finish bathing and packing my things..my father fetch me there..put me down at the taxi stand and i went in myself...she was awake that time..well..so i took out my blanket and jacket..just in case it got cold..and lie down there..waited for the nurse to come measure her pressure and temp and all..waited till ard 330am..but the nurse didn't come..argh..forget it..so i try to sleep...for some reasons..i couldn't sleep..cause just quarrelled with wf...okie..maybe not quarrelled..jus that he got hurt by my words..hmm...was stressful at that time..so..well..as u know..when i'm stress..my words can hurt..so i always try not to be in contact with people when i'm stress...until around 5am plus..then he called and apologised..talked for awhile...then put down the phone..was still abit mad with him though..just when i was about to fall asleep..the nurse came in..which woke me up..nurse went out..when i was about to fall asleep again..felt my sis's move..tot maybe she wan to go toilet..so sit up and see..no...she was just moving her body to a comfortable place..damn..i looked out..it was almost morning ler..ard 6am at that time..eyes tired..well..i fell aslp in the end..tink for like 5mins later..heard my sister calling me..saying that she wan go toilet..argh..forget it..dun sleep ler..so the whole night..i was awake...helping her go toilet..holding the drips for her..sometimes her blood flow out of the tube..looks disgusting..it was also the first time...that i saw the sky turn from night to morning..too bad..didn't see the sunrise..around 10am..after the doctor came and go..went 7-11 to buy my breakfast and bring back to eat..didn't see auntie chris there...guess she must have retire..or isit...hmm...since she was like over 70 ler..shall go and asked alan when i see him...
was suppose to go out with part of sr gang and part of apss gang..but cause i didn't sleep the whole night..so call chiko to tell her i not going ler..went home to sleep after that..people kip calling and msging me when i sleeping..ah...all sis's fault..didn't go school to do my project in the end ler...was too tired..when i woke up..went straight back to hospital...SL was there waiting for me to have dinner..well..it was my lunch..at around 8pm plus..took taxi down to my father's office..since my mother forgot to give my father the car key..waited damn long for the taxi..might as well take mrt...will reach faster..
saturday..which is yesterday..went to causeway to reservice my handphone..estimated time was 1 hr..outside the nokia care center...a whole lot of people was waiting for their turn...start to think that whether do they come to repair their nokia phone..or they just came to buy new phones...nowadays...people are getting richer and richer...
jiajun...came to wish me happy new year...1st one to wish me...but..hem..jiajun?!?!?!?hmm....hahaha...
sometimes i was thinking that whether would it make any difference if i were to live in a hdb flat rather than this big house..would it make any difference if i were born into a single parent family..would it make any difference if i have a brother instead of a sister..would i still be me..would i still be myself...would i still be like what people see outside of me as "happy go lucky"...would i be expectedo have a good result of going into a university..would i be expected to have a good future..not knowing whether i would be happy anot...
for now..i just hoped to be a normal human being creature..i just want to have a happy life..be a happy girl..doesn't matter if i'm rich or not...you know..just like those gals...living happily..normally..normally..as in doesn't need to worry about whether your company will be defeat by the rivals..not worrying about whether there are any badstabbers in your company..wouldn't it be great...
i mean..okie..maybe my thinking will change if i'm born in a poor..very very poor family..living in a very very small flat...worrying about whether i have enough for tml..maybe my thinking wil change..wanting to be a very very successful person in the future...if this isit..wouldn't it be better if i'm born in a poor family..or isit?
like what people always say..."either u suffer later..enjoy now.."....."or you suffer now...enjoy later..."....
which will you choose then?
ps:night at the museum was nice...!!!very nice..should watch!!highly recommended by me!!go watch!!
Love is sour and bitter.
