Friday, January 05, 2007
-- go or not go...go or not go... --
2 days of school have past...for now..it has been going quite well..i guess...just that not happy with my dmid results..i rmb in pri sch and secondary school..everyone likes mcqs the best..will beg and lick our teachers' boots just to ask them to test us only on mcqs....
but now..i guess it would be the other way round..i would beg and lick my teacher's boots to don't give me mcqs..mcqs are a killer for me..its always the mcqs which pull me down..section B...no mcqs..if not i forgot bout one of the reasons for bla bla bla..i would get full marks..but section A..all mcqs...oh sucks..i fail that part..same goes for OS...pract..no mcqs..all just codes..can get full marks..but theory test..ah....stupid mcqs..
anyway..for my project..my create part is done..hehex..thanks ar!..you know who you are...hmm...going on to my update part..but before that..gonna write my resume first..got to hand in tml..and i realise i forgot all the names of thse certificates and awards that i've got..though i think those are shitty shit de achievements..well...but..hmm..better than leaving it blank right..
18yrs of living..came to a conclusion...life is cruel and black..i mean...even if you are in pri sch..there'll be black and white..in staff room..in principal office..and even classroom..same goes to sec sch...coming down to poly now..at least..i saw a person who's totally fair and square..not even abit lenient to me..but hey..it doesn't matter to me..you don't give me that marks..jiu don't give me..since its my fault forgetting to hand in..but what matters to me is the justice that that person let me see...i mean..that person stand on the way of what that person thinks..and not cause of that person's boss saying "no..you should follow what i say"..and change one's own mindset..good..keep it up...!!the only person i see not licking boots and all...jiayou!
realise this afternoon after mw called me that the one who called me on sun/mon..forgot when..was not panda but mw..hohoho...and i keep thinking is panda...eh..cannot blame me though..cause both of you de house number looks the same..both have the numbers "3", "5", "2" and "1"...whatever..
again..my confidence went down..when thinking about the responsibilities of mine in geo council..i'm afraid of it fall under my rule..afraid of not gettin enough members for the coming club crawl..afraid of failure events organise by me..afraid of different opinions with guru/peiling..yea..i know..peiling is jus a yr 1 student..but hey..she's not only a yr 1 student..she was in jc before that...the president of her sch green club...she won any green award before..making her my successor after i graduate..and that's one thing i worry too..she joined GEO..not cause of cca points..not cause of having fun..but cause that she really have the idea of "saving the earth.."..those green mind..jus of her mindset..could end her in trouble having different views with the boss up there..those lecturers looking at us..
what lecturers think:
do wadever you can to make NYP known of its green..
do wadever you can to promote geo council..
make us once in headlines of the newspaper again...
mind the money you spend..we got budget...
if u wana held events in the atrium..make sure u gt tons of attention..people from outside and inside will be lookin at you..
what peiling think:
simple...save the earth...
3Rs...
complains of the events not effective and comprehensive enough..meaning..we are suppose to save the earth..but we went to collect newspaper and cans..all kinda garbage..and create more garbage..letting people to use those garbage we collect to create a scarecrow..or some sort of creature..
ah...how m i going to survive..
tml...when during my breaktime..going to find guru..okie..maybe not really find him..jus go his office and use his computer..to enter the relevant cca points..giving to members who particiapte in our events..sat...
sat is the thing i'm wondering about..some guy..didn't manage to get his name..i mean he told me twice..but i erm..was sorta not listening..told me nyp pal gt events..ask me go support..from 1-7pm..u see ar..if i go the event..my kbox and kpool is out..but if i don't go..its like abit not responsible?i'm suppose to be communicating with different people coming from different clubs and society..i'm suppose to da hao guan xi..so as to path a way for my club..but..i'm abit tired..what if later i become the committee of nyp pal again...i'm tired...
ah..what should i do..should i go???!!?!??!?!?!?!?!!???!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!???!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!???!?!?!???!?!?!?!?
?!?!?!?!?!!???!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!???!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!???!?!?!???!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!!
Love is sour and bitter.
