Wednesday, December 05, 2007
-- show me a sign.. --
sianess...these few days..doesn't seem to have much appetite..not sure why..just don't feel like eating...or maybe those food dun appeal to me..not sure...just...duno...
today..while in koufu..during break time..when they eating..i didn't hab appetite..after like walkin few rounds around koufu..thn i tot i shld at least buy something..so bought ta suan...yellow beans with you tiao?
finish all the you tiao..but the yellow beans..like never touch dao..too sweet...no..that's just an excuse i give to th n guys..just..dun feel like eating?
yl call me when i jus seat down after buying ta suan...asking me to help her check her mail..i rejected...saying..i couldn't hear her..could she sms me or wad...n she rejected again..felt that she feels like crying..and she just gave me her email address and pwd..i wrote it down...
forgot to scan my card for NE..since its always manual attendance..well..the time i scanned was 1412pm...
when i left sch...felt abit of emptiness in my stomach..so i went to the hawker behind yckss to eat..bought cai fan..when i was ordering for food..the guy behind who was cooking..from my side glance..he was cooking with lots of actions..cause the whole body is moving?n i felt him looking at me..so i looked up at him..n he's smiling at me..thn he say "hi"...i smile back as a gesture of politeness..i continue to buy my food..but he still continue to do big actiosn and smile at me..so i smile back again..when i was paying..he talked to me..not sure what he say..didnt make any effort to listen..so i just smile and say "thank you"..went back to my seat..and sat down..saw his head come out..n glance where i'm seating..but when he saw the nan ren seating beside me..he glance for few more times and stop..wanted to tell my nan ren..but dared not..
guess what..i didnt finish my food again...
still feeling sianess..and the jaw problem came again..what's going on with me...
at night..dinner..not hungry..but felt i at least got to eat...eat 3 or 4 mouth..thn i felt full..so drank soup..and went to grab an apple for fruit time..thn here i'm eating..
its late..but things not done...nothing pushing me to move on..did found any ways to motivate myself..found no reason..cca..7 more days..to my club closing ceremony..studies..depressing..BI..its...undescribe-able...yl...what shld i do about her..her email..do i even have time to login her account to check..what to do..everything..messed up...show me a sign heaven...
not yet bath..feels comfortable in this outfit..its what i wanted..the feeling of this shirt n short..the smell of it..sounds like a pervert huh...
how's tml going to be like..i ponder..
Love is sour and bitter.
